***  
 
I am an N.  
It lingers in my name,  
In words like Never, No, Neither.  
It means unknown   
And things I never was  
In love with real men for instance.  
I weave a net of words  
For no need or reason  
Miss someone who was never born  
Like an unknown part  
Of a lost heart -   
And  
I am  
In love with an unknown god  
Called N.